I need to be awake in less than 5 hours, but I have got to note this down. Today was a disaster by every measure I use, and if there was any excellence, it was truly a 'best-we-can-do' kind of response. However, as the Lord states personally in Isaiah 55:8-9, His ways are higher than my ways. Thus, I defer to His better wisdom and way.
Everything conspired against what I knew to be right, to be excellent, and revealed the true nature of my heart. I did not want a time in which my family-in-Christ could meet, I wanted a performance. I wanted a glittering spectacle, something I could be proud of, in my own arrogant measure.
But God does not want me to live like this. Not live in arrogance at my achievements, but to dwell in humble joy and contentment in Him. Yes, it's painfully difficult. I had to sit out the party for a little while to debate with the Lord as to the necessity of the circumstances. I have faced difficulties, but never did it persist this much. I had quite frankly pointed to the Enemy for his scheming, and did indeed pray against his machinations. Perhaps he had his part to play, but that too the Lord used to direct me to His principal point.
If I have any love, then I must elevate those whom I love. If I love them, then I will not want them to eat dirt, since there's better food on the Father's table. If I love them, then I will want them to be clothed in the authority of princes and princesses of the Realm, as I walk in. If I do nothing else, I will do as Apostle Paul did - "show a way of life that is the best of all" (1 Cor 12:31b), and that is to love.
Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. - 1 Cor 13:7 (NLT)
Three things will last forever—faith, hope, and love—and the greatest of these is love. - 1 Cor 13:13 (NLT)
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