Monday, March 17, 2014

Teeter-totter.

I find my thoughts in a precarious place today, as is always when you actually strip all of it down to the important and the not-important. I suppose I ought to learn the lesson by now how to tell the difference between the former and the latter, instead of fussing over what is only urgent.

My thoughts are on the subject of failure. "Failure is unacceptable", I am inclined to think, and am too in the habit of expressing. Yet, a trusted mentor demonstrated to me that failure is a better teaching aid than success in the right context. I am of two minds now, whether to factor for failure in my life, or to cling to a petty but comforting illusion that failure can be planned into oblivion.

No, I am not creating space for mediocrity, but leaving room, indeed a wide and open space, for the God of the universe to dwell supremely as the center of my universe, my being, and all that I hold dear. How far do I want to trust that word of God that is in Matthew 6:33?

Postscript: "Very truly I tell you, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds." - Jesus in John 12:24